I talk to the wind

I should study - I cannot... :/ Or I just think I cannot.
Always the same story - a lot of eagerness, promises, etc. and "somewhere between"* I'm just falling apart.

* - from "I Talk To The Wind" by King Crimson (a beautiful translation by Tomasz Beksiński)

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I've been here and I've been there
And I've been in between.

I talk to the wind
My words are all carried away
I talk to the wind
The wind does not hear
The wind cannot hear.

I'm on the outside looking inside
What do I see
Much confusion, disillusion
All around me.

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